My life sucks the life out of me

#10 ehhhh, I was distracted

#10 ehhhh, I was distracted

My trees fold in their leaves when it’s night

"My parents would be so proud"
Is not a phrase I’d use
To describe who I have become

"I am so proud of my daughter"
Is not something my parents
Would ever say to strangers

I ate supper and my mom said
“I am so proud of you”
I couldn’t tell her otherwise
So, she is proud

I don’t believe in absolutes
They limit possibilities
And construct unneeded walls

Lost at sea
I look at the stars
Like back at home
They resemble bars

Each light different
Each light blended
I don’t mind being lost
It can be splendid

I projected a map of you
An extension of my body
Without you I feel wrong
A lonely amputee
The map of me has a hole
I cannot seem to replace
You have taken a part of me
I forever am empty space

I am dumb as fuck
Get drunk off happiness
Make the wrong choices
Wound up done

It’s like summer never happened
It was there now it’s not
A short, quick spasm
Soon to be forgot

My fingers dance on skin
Writing love with every tap
Comforting every groove
Making their home on someone else
Like a house made flexible
It will last through the storm
A leaky roof could be worse
But my fingers fix the wounds

Collection of my life.